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Sunday, July 20, 2008

Angels to Beckon Me...

Thank you doesn't seem adequate to express how grateful we feel for the prayers, the thoughts, and the warm wishes we've benefitted from in the last few days. Please know how much we have been lifted and strengthened by your love and support. We feel strengthened and hopeful because of those thoughts and prayers for us. Thank you so much. 





My parents are on their mission right now in Australia. Even with an expansive ocean dividing us, I am grateful to have felt their closeness and love through all of this. The other day my Dad reminded me of a phrase from one of my favorite Church hymns, which now means even more to me: 

There let the way appear, steps unto heav'n;

All that Thou sendest me, in mercy giv'n;

Angels to beckon me Nearer, my God, to Thee,

Nearer, my God, to Thee, Nearer to Thee.

This, we feel, is a very simple message of the purpose of our daughters' brief moments on earth. They, our angels, are now back with Heavenly Father, beckoning us to make it there to be with them. In all our life we have never felt a stronger yearning for heaven, a more pure desire to be whole and clean, a more dedicated heart to all that's good and right. Their brief moments with us have changed our life more profoundly than any other experience or combination of experiences we've ever had. But, all those past experiences have had their purpose in serving as a foundation of faith, making it easier to accept all that's happened in the last week. They've been our reservoir of faith and testimony.

We love our little girls so dearly. They have taught us so much, and we know we will still have many things to learn from them in the coming years. How grateful we feel for the blessing of having them in our family.

14 comments:

Mama said...

I wonder why these things happen. Not with any sense that life is unfair or that God hasn't heard our prayers, but I was pondering to myself today why this happened to your sweet family.

And it popped into my head that you will know for the rest of your days that there are children for you to raise in the next life. Some might wonder about that, but you know it. I don't know if that would be a comfort - a reminder to stay on the straight and narrow - a gift in that you know you are more than husband and wife but are parents - all of the above....but it seems so significant to me.

We're still praying here for the peace and comfort of your family. I hope you are able to be gentle with yourselves during this time....

Zanzi & Buzz said...

We love you and are praying for you. Rose and Scott Bowcut

Carlykins said...

You are a pillar of strength to me my friend. Thank goodness for the Gospel to know that these sweet girls are still alive and that this is not the end. That they are yours forever. Like we talked about the other day Megan, I can't imagine the intensity of the pain without the Gospel. How unbearable. I am eternally grateful to have you in my life. The examples that you and marc are. May you continually be blessed. May Heavenly Father carry you in His arms at this time. I don't even know what to say.
You are on the prayer roll ;)

I love you!

Amy said...

You are an absolute example to me. I admire your faith and the comfort you take in the Gospel so much.
I'm praying for you and the babies every time you pop in to my mind...which is often.
It doesn't feel like much, but I don't know what else to do for you guys.
Lots of love to the four of you...

The 311 Boys Mom said...

i wanted to tell you how sorry i am for your loss. I dont' know you, but I did pray that everything would be fine.

i sooo happy you have such a stong faith to fall back on. I ill continue to hold you in my thoughts & prayers.

Mike & Leslie Rowberry said...

Okay, you don't even know me, I don't know you, but I have just sat here the last hour reading your blog and crying. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I admire you so much for your strength and still being so reliant on the Lord through all this. I too struggle with infertility and it's very hard to stay positive and not be angry. You are amazing to have such a positive attitude with everything you are and have been going through. Thank you for this blog and sharing your experiences. It has helped me to look at my infertility in a completely different way. We have not yet come to adoption and I am scared to adopt. So many fears, what if's. I am lucky to have a son Alex who was a result of IVF w/ ICSI, but we can't afford to go through that financially or emotionally. I would love to talk to you about adoption, and have questions on that whole process. I feel like we already have this connection just by reading your blog. I don't even know how I stumbled upon it. I was looking at my friends blog and clicked on three heartaches and then stumbled on yours. But I am so glad I did.

Kelly said...

You guys amaze me. I feel so privileged to know you.

Much love and hugs coming from the coast...

Ence Family said...

We are sorry to hear about the loss of your little girls. You are in our thoughts and prayers. We personally know what you are going through and know how you are feeling since we went through the loss of our precious little son 4 years ago. If there is anything our family can do for you please do not hesitate to let us know. We are here for you.

Kim said...

You are so strong, both of you. As I read your words, there is so much hope and happiness, things I did not feel when we lost our baby...until now, and reading your words about the desire for heaven, that is exactly how we feel. The purpose of our time here on earth became so much more clear to us after we lost our little baby. We strive to have the blessing of being able to raise him/her, something that didn't seem quite as important, or quite as attainable, until we suffered the heartache that you are having to endure at this time. Father in Heaven is an amazing teacher. I often times think of how perfect these little spirits must be to be called home with a much grander purpose than to stay here with us. I am in awe of this, and while it hurts and is extremely difficult and the tears flow easily, my heart is at peace. I just want you to know that it does get easier with time. Time is an excellent healer of wounds. We still cry, we still morn, we pray for our little family everyday and include little "peanut" in those prayers. The important thing is to never forget these feelings, these little girls...my heart is with you Marc and with Megan especially. A big huge hug from your friend in Utah. I wish I could be there to strengthen you in person. Much love to you all!

Amy said...

Megan and Marc - you've both been in my constant prayers since the email. I can't say much except that I am so very sorry for your heartache.

You're such strong, faithful people and true examples to me. Know that your words have touched and changed lives and that your faith encourages all who read. I pray that your burdens will be light and the path ahead will be an easier one to travel. With so much love, Amy

Head Nurse/Patient- you be the judge said...

Best wishes for your day Thursday. Many prayers and thoughts on your behalf.

anb13 said...

I am at work and just did a random google search for a dessert cheeseball and came upon your blog. I just started looking around and read your most recent postings and I am so sorry for the loss within your family. I shared your story with my coworkers and we wanted to let you know that even though we don't know you, we are thinking about you and your family and our thoughts and prayers are with you. We are very sorry for your loss and wish you peace and comfort during this trying time.

Ashlye (and friends at the IU Simon Cancer Center in Indianapolis, Indiana)

mindyluwho said...

I was just catching up on my blog reading and my heart broke for you both while reading this. I'm so sorry. That seems so inadequate to say. Because of some experience I have gone through lately I have been pondering life and death. I am so grateful that we know where our loved ones are and for the hope that we can be with them forever. I know that those are two very special little angels because they have two very special parents. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.

Ruth said...

Marc and Megan, I checked your blog after Kamie Allen mentioned it on her's. I can't help but echo your feelings about that hymn. My 19-year-old sister was killed in a car accident last year and as we sang that line at her funeral, my heart swelled at the thought of angels calling to her and welcoming her back to her place in heaven. May you have our Heavenly Father's spirit with you as you grieve for your precious daughters.